Thirty, Time & Tide

Stress Steps…

shellsncheese — Wed, 10 Feb 2010 03:59:22 +0000

Often times we want things but just aren’t willing to do the work it takes to get what we want. It is often then assumed that you must not really want it, if you’re not willing to do the work. I’ve found that people just enjoy what they’re use to most and doing something new an different, just isn’t worth it. UNTIL you realize it works! Well, that won’t happen unless you do it, step 1..and believe it WILL work step two. Without those two things, you mind as well keep the pattern of unwillingness.

This is one of my favorite people and I PROMISE this method works..ONLY if you if you work it! Release what you really don’t need..why hold on to it, if it hurts?

Bubble Bee Breakthrough

shellsncheese — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 02:21:21 +0000

This was VERY weird for me and it was impulse and I just went with it. I know its meaning will be revealed to me, so I had to share it with you all.

I am IN LOVE with spiders. I think they are all beautiful and I never kill them-they are good luck. I love insects in general. But I DESPISE Bee’s. I will smash a bee in a minute with a brick!!!! I lose my mind when I see a bee. I have only been stung once as a child, and I honestly don‘t know why I have a fear of them, but I HATE them and while I’m a lover when it comes to creatures I wish nothing but harm on them all. When I see one I scream and make a fool of myself I don’t care who’s watching. Those that know me have witnessed this…until today..

I am sitting outside for a break and we have a really nice waterfall outside and I go to just be still during the day. I am eating some nuts and dried fruit that is in a plastic baggie and HERE COMES Mr.Stupid Bee..immediately it was like I told myself on cue “Okay, time to jump up and scream and run to the next sitting area like a damn fool.” But something was still inside of me and said “Be still..”..so of course I did just that. I did not flinch. I stayed completely still and watched his every move and he gently lands RIGHT ON MY HAND and I am just in the moment and I kept saying in my head “Feel the fear and do it anyway” OVER AND OVER AND OVER..he crawled in between my fingers, around my arm, hand, trying to get into the bag. I am as still as a statue and I am feeling his light touches and tickles as he moved throughout my hand. This went on for several minutes and I waited until he got back on to the top of my hand and I was over this game and lifted my hand and he flew away.

I took a deep breath after he left and I COULD NOT believe I just went through that and was still in the moment. This was truly a moment for me!

The LSAT

shellsncheese — Mon, 04 Jan 2010 05:00:05 +0000

I am on day two of the Testmaster’s study course and they have already broken me down emotionally. I have come so far and I am truly proud of finally getting to this moment that I have anticipated for so many years. What I expected, I don’t even know, but what I realize is that his is and truly will be one of the most challenging things I have ever done.

As I mentioned before I have a problem with staying committed to things, but that is not the issue here at all. It is more of the fear of my true capability that is eating at me. All the years of being told what I “can’t do” or would not be able to accomplish whether it was a get rich quick idea or a profession I was chasing, it is all coming together now in my head. The thoughts aren’t eating away at me as they usually would, as I am in a much better place now, but they have definitely made themselves apparent. I will not discuss my score that I got as I am beyond in awh about it. I needed this pre-course to say the least. I was told it was the best, so $1450 dollars later here I am, at the evening of session two.

This is monumental in so many ways. I want this so bad. I have never truly, that I can honestly say, truly dove into something with all my heart and soul (other than my more recent relationship) into something that I wanted. I always made excuses and things never ended as hoped. Through the years of fasting and other forms of self-discipline, this is my TRUE test of will, in my opinion. I need this score to be phenomenal for so many reasons, but the main one, the most crucial one, is none other than to show myself that I could.

Altadena Christmas

shellsncheese — Mon, 04 Jan 2010 04:33:29 +0000

Much like every year, I spent this year with my son in Los Angeles, California. I had also spend the two weeks prior for his birthday as well. We had a great time. We both are character’s and love to reminise. He brings up the past and how funny it was, I then remind him of how funny it was by re-enacted what took place. That’s mom, the total clown. He loves it. Most importantly, I love him loving it. He is an amazing boy. I love him to pieces. I just wish that I could give him more pieces of me, that he deserves.

We will remain this way, until time allows different. I am grateful that I am able to have such a blessing in my life we all call Jordan. May he continue to be that blessing for others.

Introducing Drizzy!

shellsncheese — Mon, 04 Jan 2010 04:31:07 +0000

This is my nifty lil kitty! I would love to say how sweet and wonderful and loving this adorabe white pawed creature is, but he has grown closer to those identifying factors more and more each day, but just not ready to give him those labels yet. He has been less than pleasant, let’s just say. But due to my lack of being able to one, finish anything I start, and two, stay committed to something I commit to, I was indirectly forced to keep him once he became a terror. I won’t get into the detail of how unpleasant, but let’s just say that if he ran away and never came back I’d TOTALLY be okay with him doing just that!..but I am growing to love him as he’s become sweeter.

He got his name from the Hip Hop start I adore, Drake! aka Drizzy! Somehow that name fits my crazy, gangsta kitty! He is a mess! I love him..a little bit!

He’s started to really love going outside and usually just comes to the door when he’s ready to come back in. He’s having a ball with the kitties in the neighborhood, as he should! I hate the idea of animals being cooped up in houses and only knowing their immediate surrounings. Which is why I made Drizzy an indoor/ outdoor cat! He deserves it, even if he is a pain in the…

The Truest Words Ever Wrote For Those Lost and Broken!

shellsncheese — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 16:46:38 +0000

Sometimes people come into your life & you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are & or who you want to become You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger), but when you lock eyes with them, you know at the very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way, and sometimes things will happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, & unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming these obstacles that you would have never realized your true potential, strength, will power, or heart.
Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by mean of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness & sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without this small test, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe & comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.
The people that you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you will become Even the bad experiences are learned from. In fact, they are the most poignant ones.
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love & how to open your heart & eyes to things.
Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment & take from those moments everything you could possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before & actually listen… Let yourself fall in love again, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right too.
Tell yourself that you are a great individual & believe in yourself. For if you don’t believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make your life anything you wish…..Create your own life & then go out & live it with absolutely NO REGRETS. Most importantly, if you love someone tell him or her, for you NEVER know what tomorrow may have in store. And learn a lesson in life each day you live.

Today is the tomorrow you were worried about yesterday…. Was it worth it?

How Does Fat Leave Our Body

shellsncheese — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 16:17:12 +0000

Of course now that I am thirty, over the past 6 months I have been working towards being in the best shape of my life in my 30’s. I have always been into being fit and athletics, but naturally that slowed down in my 20’s. There are so many people I look towards for inspiration, but very few that I know myself, many people say they want to look like “A” but very few actually stick to it and do it. Jada Pinkett-Smith is my girl, and I love that woman. So, to describe where I am trying to be and trying to get to is “Getting’ my Jada Pinkett-Smith On.” I am very confident in my body and I love it, but I want to look in the mirror and see my body in a way I have never see it before, Slim and Chiseled!

So, before I head out to the gym I was thinking about how exactly the fat leaves your body. I have heard you expel it in your urine and sweat. That sounds good, but I kind of what the exact full details and all the options in which it “disappears” as we lose weight. I know that fat cells remain in your body once they’re there, they only shrink. This is why people get Lipo, to remove the fat cells completely. Fat remains stored in our body so that we have a defense in case we are unable to nourish our bodies, the stored fat will be used like a generator. I think that was pretty darn smart of God, to add that lil feature to us, don’t you?

This is what I have found on my E-research!

-Fat goes through a transition throughout the body.

-Fat changes and breaks down into different compounds and enters the bloodstream.

-When The Fat composition (all the technical mumbo jumbo that the fat breaks down into) enters the Liver and Muscle Cells.

-The process of which Fat is used as energy takes place.

-During this process the composition from the Fat is broken down again into Carbon Dioxide, Heat and Water.

-The Carbon Dioxide is release from our Lungs (exhalation).

-The water leaves the body in the form of Urine and Sweat.

-The heat that is generated from the fat is used to warm the body and keep it at 98.7 degrees and completely energize the body and heart.

So, now we know, in a very simple form. So, you know what that means! We all need to pee and sweat as much as possible *wink*

Books in Current Rotation

shellsncheese — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 18:59:19 +0000

I consider myself an avid reader, especially these days. I usually keep two/three books that I read at a time. I am on quite a career path of building a few umbrella’s of income for myself, three to be exact, but as we all know it is ALL about who you know and I make sure I am around “those” people that are referred to in that statement! *wink*

What sucks the most about venturing out into territory that is unfamiliar is that you wish you grew up with family who had the same dreams and aspirations you do now. It would make this all that much easier. Growing up poor or close to it, you just don’t learn the secrets and really simple know-how of how to be successful and have everything you want and NOT rely on effortless revenue like the lottery. You come to learn that the key to success is mind-state and that’s IT! Everything else falls into place once that is made a foundation.

Both of these books are phenominal!

Stay-Cation! Birthday Celebration

shellsncheese — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 18:33:33 +0000

Birthday staycation at the Mondrian Hotel in Scottsdale Arizona!

My Birthday turn out pretty darn good! I had a two night stay at the Mondrian, filled with sillyness and good memories. From jumping back and forth from the “oops” unlocked suite attached to our room to Sunday pool party and getting TRASHED. I had a blast with my favorite Aquarius and his roomie. Some other friends met us during the pool party and we totally ended the Labor Day weekend with a bang on that one.

The weekend started Saturday evening with Sushi at Pure in the hotel. Hung out at the club next to our room, leaving to go down a drink at our room and head right back to the club. It was a total Oyster Fest(my lil nickname for all women in a club..known as Sausage Fest for all men) most of the night. Nothing like getting chaufered in a golf cart to the pizza spot around the way before bed time~

Sunday was the pool party! More shinanigans that WHOLE day. Loved it! Besides about to kill my roomate for throwing me in the pool for the third time, everything else went GREAT! I am grateful for those who made my bday special!

Labor Day was homework and re-coop day.

Top Things I LOVED as a Kid

shellsncheese — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 16:53:07 +0000

There were so many parts about being a lil Shelley aka Boogerface, Punkin, Shelli Dawn, and Honey Pot that I really enjoyed. There were a few things that were some of my signature things that I loved so much as a child you’d identify some of those things with me personally.

Apple Juice in my Crayon Cup

I loved apple juice. I always drank it out of my red crayon cup.

Cotton Candy

OMG, can we say yum! This is still my favorite candy of all time.

Pretzels

As a child, this was my favorite snack EVERYDAY!

Lemon & Seasoning Salt

Saved the best for last. I ate this in the sumer time all the time. Who thought to sprinkle seasoning salt on a lemon and walk around squeezing the juice in your mouth, I don’ t know, but boy was it yum.